Rabu, 22 Disember 2010

of an untold story unfold

it was only the day before my 24th birthday that i was told quite an interesting story that happens back 24 years ago:

near midnight of Dec 19, 1986 my uncle was simply kalut.. it was raining heavily and had started flooding as per the scheduled monsoon season.. at my grandmother house, my mom was already in labor pain despite my birth date outlook to be tentatively Jan 31, 1987.. the village clinic's nurse was away on vacation.. the nearest bidan simply declined to come as she was not booked.. the only choice left is another bidan who lived quite far and need to cross a bridge.. once my uncle reached the bridge, the bridge was flooded with overflowing water thus unable to distinguished between the river and the bridge.. this one river was known to have its inhabitants, thus when my uncle actually stepped into one of their heads, he immediately snatch a tree branch and ketuk ketuk ketuk ketuk their head and hurriedly, running across the river to the bidan house.. i was born just right when the clock strike twelve with my uncle the bidan safely made it despite the dangerous encounter..

the not so dangerous crocs


aaahh.. I am 24 now.. spent the day travelling back from KB to home.. but had had a nice dinner at Koryowon! once reached KL .. heee~.. i just love the tender and juicy beef bbq-ed korean style wrapped in fresh crispy lettuce..nyumm!

Not to forget, happy engagement to Kak Tie!

kenapa tak rasa cam da tua setaun pon? :P

Rabu, 1 Disember 2010

of randomness

Ahad, 7 November 2010

of colors in zaman muda remaja

you are so dazzling, my heart is thumping..
you are the only one for me and always be number 1, i love you..

come a little bit closer to me, i want to tightly hold your hands..
this song is only for you, i love you forever..

i need your love, love, love..

i promise you to only look into your eyes..
stand by your side, protecting and loving you with all my heart..

baby, i need your love, love, love..

just your one love is enough for me..
even if i will lose everything, never will i let you go..

you are my everything my love..

i only see you, i keep thinking about you..
that never fails to make me smile..

you are my everything my heart..

you have captured me..
you are more captivating than angel, i will only love you..

i was secretly laughing at myself..
i can not believe how deep i have fallen for you..
you got into my mind with your charm my boo..
now i am like a fool that has fallen in love..
my everything, now it's you..
i am falling in love with you, look at me and i promise you..
even if the world ends, i'll love you like a timeless clock that never ends..

i need your love, love, love..

i promise you to only look into your eyes..
stand by your side, protecting and loving you with all my heart..

baby, i need your love, love, love..

just your one love is enough for me..
even if i will lose everything, never i will let you go..

you are my everything my love..

i only see you, i keep thinking about you..
that never fails to make me smile..

you are my everything my heart..

you have captured me..
you are more captivating than angel, i will only love you..

:: Angel - Super Junior's Ryeowook, Kyuhyun, Donghae, Sungmin & Eunhyuk::


oh, youth spirit and puppy love(s)!~
has mine passed already?
my time may yet to be due :P

wondering whose heart will this arrow strike?

Selasa, 2 November 2010

of spamm

ain't he cute or what?
hae-sshi, u are such a cutie!
::fanatism mode::

::disclaimers: pictures are taken directly from lee dong hae's twitter page::


initially planned to write about my recent trip to KK and Singapore.. but, oh well.. too lazy.. maybe next time?

Ahad, 17 Oktober 2010

of so called classic coffee shop

I realized kopitiams nowadays require the customers to do self servicing either by browsing the menu given at table and ticking the prepared order form; or order the food, pay, and collect the food at the counter.. no more the conventional way where the waiter/-tress would ask the customer and recommend today's special (altho half-boiled eggs and toast are the favorites).. and sumtimes, they still charge you for service tax!

this morning, i had my breakfast at one kopitiam in bangi, the one that is near to masjid hasanah and hospital az-zahra & an-nur, the one owned by one of members of the country legendary rock group (am I being too descriptive here?)..

Not to complaint, but I have to admit the service is quite lousy.. when we first arrived, there was a few other customers arriving at the same time with us.. instead of taking orders, noticed that 2 waiters in front of us were cleaning the same table (DUH!) while some waiters(-tresses) are just idling at the counter, chit chatting.. maybe they do assigned everyone to special job description i.e. cleaning-up table, taking order, delivering ordered items but when you can see customers streaming in and waiting for someone to respond to them, it is clearly the job assignments was not done effectively..

after quite sometime, one of the waiter came and placed the menu and order form, on the table without saying anything (courtesy 101 anyone? ).. it was only after approx 30 minutes, someone from the kitchen come out and approach us:

Kitchen guy: "sorry cik tapi nasi lemak ngan ayam and sotong da habis"
(we ordered 3 nasi lemak with chicken btw. however only 2 show-up)

Us: "nape tak bagi taw awal2..da tunggu 30 minit baru cakap"

Kitchen guy: "tadi masih ade tapi sbb ramai order da habes.. "
(erkss..does the reasoning make sense?..why accept the order if you cant cater for it?)

In the end we resorted to just get a toast,but less than a minute a waiter served nasi lemak with chicken to the table in front of us who came later (!!!) .. i don't hold grudge to that table thou.. at least our food arrived at about the same time.. for them, only after one of the spouse finished up the nasi lemak plus some waiting time, did his wife meehoon arrived..

but if i were to think again, what does it take to serve a pre-cooked and readily nasi lemak and ayam till they need at least 30 minutes to get it served?

my first time at the kopitiam was back a few years ago, the food was nice especially their nasi dagang and they do have good service.. went last year and the food quality and service seem not as good as it used to be.. but now, they definitely deteriorated to a great extent especially in the service region (the toast, as in 2 slice of toasted bread with kaya and butter was NOT nice.. the nasi lemak was OK la).. kind of a waste as a strategically located malay kopitiam is a rarity..


for kelantanese, they definitely have at least heard of nasi tumpang, if have not engulfed themselves in this unique delicacy.. no?.. are you REALLY a kelantanese?..hey, i'm a half kelantanese myself and had enjoyed it quite number of times.. shame on you! :P

definition of nasi tumpang: nasi-impit-like-rice packed in a cone-shaped banana leaf.. a pack of nasi tumpang consists of an omelette, meat floss, chicken and/or shrimp curry and sweet gravy.. it is traditionally meant for travellers

did some googling (not oggling :P) and found two places that do serve nasi tumpang in Klang Valley: Warung and Belanga.. both are located at Midvalley: near entrance from KTM and gardens respectively.. aaah, mengidamnye~.. should plan a visit there soon, very soon..

Sabtu, 9 Oktober 2010

of empty dream

Junsu, Yoochun and Jaejoong (a.k.a JYJ) will be in MALAYSIA on Oct 17 for their new album showcase tour!!

Really really want to have the VIP ticket (VIP seat + autograph and photo session wif them!)..tapi mahal maa.. RM800!.. if i would have known earlier would not spend my accumulation of money cash award that i got from opis..

is there anyone out there care to give me one JYJ VIP ticket?.. please~?
backstage pass pun okey je..


none.. :: too heartbroken::

not really..a bit la.. but not really..

Ahad, 3 Oktober 2010

of snapshots


jaa ne!~

Rabu, 1 September 2010

of proverb

"Nana korobi ya oki"

That had been my favorite japanese proverb since in schooling era.. (talk about anime's influence!)
Literally it means: fall 7 times, rise up 8 times..
It motivates me that in the end perseverance will triumph, so keep up the good work and do not falter!

ganbarimashou minna!
chaiyok2, aja2!



Hope it's not too late too wish everyone:

Happy Independence Day!

Spent my independence day berjemuran di SFD in the middle of the sea..

ooohh..esok mungkin adalah hari yang stress tika masuk opis kembali..

Sabtu, 28 Ogos 2010

of near misses

"personnel found pounding chili and prawn paste without wearing goggles"

that is a real, reportable near miss my frens..

what is a near miss?

in a math equation, near miss = hazard + people..

so whenever you found any hazard that can associate or impact personnel, it'll become near miss..

another good example: forgetting to pull your handbrake when parking at a hillside + people lalu lalang = kete langgar orang

why report near misses?

sharing purposes..
in offshore operations especially, all incident and near misses must be reportable to alert others and avoid occurrences

in this company i'm working with, they take high priority of safety whether its personnel safety of process safety.. thus the term SHE (Safety, Health and Environmental) used while other companies opt to used HSE or ESH.. note the S part come first, that is to emphasized, no matter what we do, safety concerns must be addressed first

sumtimes this kinda reporting make you more alert to all the hazards around you all this while, but had never noticed..

so, start reporting and sharing near misses with those you care..
i'm off, nak g beli goggles.. kot2 nanti nak tumbuk sambal belacan, xde la termasuk mata.. :P


kpop idols coming to town in October!! .. ok, correction: they're coming to our neighboring country, singapore..still, my heart is pounding to go!!

not one, but all the big names: BIG BANG, SNSD, SHINEE, FT ISLAND and one unidentified idol..

could it be SuJu? - they had came to Malaysia in March ans they are currently bz with Super Show 3..

if it gonna be DBSK or their post-SME-dispute JYJ or HoMin, i definitely cry my heart out as i wont be able to make it..
da la a week b4 i'll most probably be at singapore..

source: allkpop

Rabu, 11 Ogos 2010

of choices..

sila pilih:

lump sum:

نَوَيْتُ صَوْمَ شَهْرِ رَمَضَانَ كِلِّهِ لِلَّهِ تَعَالَى

Niatnya: Sahaja aku berpuasa sebulan Ramadhan tahun ini kerana Allah Taala.

in-series for 30 days:

نَوَيْتُ صَوْمَ غَدٍ عَنْ أَدَاءِ فَرْضِ رَمَضَانَ هَذِهِ السَّنَةِ لِلَّهِ تَعَالَى

Niatnya: Sahaja aku puasa esok hari pada bulan Ramadhan tahun ini kerana Allah Taala.

i prefer both :)

selamat berpuasa semua..


Baru taw ade wikipedia page pasal ibadah puasa dlm bahasa malaysia : http://ms.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ibadat_puasa

Ahad, 8 Ogos 2010

of work stress and fun time

masjid besi @ putrajaya..xpenah gi lagi neh
-source: wikipedia-

i dyed my hair violet.. ok, before you start jumping it's actually blackcurrant @ dark violet brown

last week had been a very exhausting week.. i was pull back in an issue that involved deferred production.. even lost the opportunity to attend SFD reliability lesson learnt workshop (just pretend you know what's it all about ek)..

so when the weekends arrived, i celebrated it with joy and pleasure, with my finger crossed no one calls me as i'm on weekend duty.. during the weekly grocery, my mom was browsing to buy for dye on her grey hair.. that' s when one dye color caught my eye..

"what color is that?" my dad asked, looking at the 2 permanent hair color..

"violet" :P

my dad goes like "purple?".. my mom malas nak layan da my kerenah..lol..

to my parents relieve, it actually turns out ok.. i would say it looks almost natural.. the violet-ness does not really showed off.. since my original hair is deep black, it looks like just another shade of black, if black have any shades.. under the lights at the right angle, then the violet-ness is seen.. and i like it just the way it turns out, even i may have hoped the color can be more obvious.. hoho~

to tell you the truth, i had been wanting to dye my hair dark violet since i'm in form 5.. i believe that was the time that this dye color was introduced.. but then, both parents definitely oppose that.. i could not dye my hair behind their back, what if it turns out disastrously and become stunning purple?..that'll be a haunting and never-ending nightmare..

hurmmm, what should be next year's colour?..should i try a lighter color?.. or jeng3x: algae green?


P/S: i actually got a call asking me to go to office just now.. ngaaa~

PP/S: selamat berpuasa dan menyambut bulan puasa al-mubarak to all muslim and muslimat~ :)


when googling for hairstyle pics, found this one nostalgic pic:

ahhh, miss them as a group!

da nak bulan puasa neh.. masih melayan kpop lagi..isk2.. >.<"

Ahad, 1 Ogos 2010

of training and taxi

last week, i was given the chance to attend Production Safety School which basically talks about API Recommended Practice 14C, 14J, 500 and 505..

ok, i know, this is very technical..tp nak citer gak.. overally, it's a very good course..

API stands for American Petroleum Institute.. by minimum, industry practices should at least meet API RP in their offshore and production facilities.. We were lucky that the course was taught by one of the original committee that wrote the API RP some ancient time ago.. (and we were told on how how they come out for some basis during the writings, which was so hilarious, though the guy may exaggerate a bit XD )..

I'd learnt a lot and appreciate had taken this training now as things start to make sense to me.. If it were too early,my take-away would probably extra dozing time and good food (i confess, the food is not really great.. it's nice and something new, not the same ol' convention centre's food we always had for meetings- i do like convention centre's food sebenarnye..hehe.. and hard rock cafe? definitely not worth the price tag :P )

API RP 14C talks about the need of having at two layer protection in you facilities.. how to check that you have adequate safety protection of your process.. How you can check whether your consultant is doing the right design and not just lying to you blindly..

being only a green horn in this industry, i do admit, the most stupidest error that i'd seen actually did came from wrong design.. not to put the blame on consultant companies, but designing and actually operating a facility are two different things.. whatever errors had been done in design (or installation) stage may affect some one life 10 - 20 years down the road, if not done properly and safely..

the instructor, being with an engineering problem-solver company, gave us examples of the unsafely design facilities which are real stories in South-East Asia facilities.. and that made me scared..seriously, when you go out there to work, you would not expect something in the facility just waiting to be flying out of orbit because of defect in the designed process safety.. >.<"


every morning during the training, i took a taxi to the course venue. (except for one day when my dad sent me there). on my last day coincidentally, i'd ride the same taxi on one of the previous days of the training.. was planning to dozed off for a few minutes before reaching the place, but the taxi driver was very talkative and the fact that i'd taken his taxi twice to the same place just add into one of topic selection list..

"keje kat hotel ke cik?" asked the taxi driver. in one of the talks, he told me was a government retiree

"tak, ada training" i do get that questions for a few times already, whenever i had taken taxi in early mornings to go for trainings.. when i had said no, they will go "ahhh, i thought so.. u don't look like one" ..but they still ask, probably out of curiosity.. >.<"

Isnin, 26 Julai 2010

drama review: oh! my lady

first of all, let me warning you : this review most probably biased since I'm at the moment have a HUUUUGE crush on Choi Si Won, but that does not mean it's not an enjoyable drama.. it's a very funny and cute, although it does not cause a hype or phenomenal like Boys Over Flowers or You're Beautiful..

Let me introduce you to our main characters which were the main reasons I started to watch this drama:

Chae Rim - her most famous and all-time favorite drama ought to be All About Eve. I had watched her post AAE dramas - powerful opponents, dalja's spring - none left me a good impression as AAE. Thus though i'm interested to watch O!ML when i heard her casted as the female lead, it does not give me the push to actually watch this one.. - and i"m glad i did not missed this..

Choi Siwon - truthfully, before this i'm not a SuJu fan, so i have no idea who was this guy, not even bother to have a glance at Javabeans drama reviews since i'm not interested. Looks to me like just another rookie actor, never that i knew i am gonna fell hard for him after the drama ends!

as if being fate, one day while watching KBS2, SuJu was promoting their then latest single BONAMANA.. my eye caught this one interesting, tall, cute guy.. quickly google and found him! --> Choi Siwon and he just wrapped up O!ML..

Yup!.. this guy was the sole purpose i start to watch this drama (and become a SuJu follower too).. but the story plot and all the actors' convincing acting that kept me wanting more and more after each of episodes of Oh! My Lady.. and i like Choi Siwon even more because of the impression he left me.. can't wait to watch Athena..

The central of the drama revolves around one star-actor at the top of ent industry, Sung Min Woo. He's a famous actor, all girls (and even ahjummas) will squeal whenever they see him even only on TV. Not because of he's acting as he is notably known as a lousy actor, but because he is such an eye-candy. He's a snob and an arrogant jerk due to his stardom but do feel insecurity in his acting especially during interview session when he'll unconsciously be shaking his legs uncontrollably..

Never had crossed the mind of a-divorcee with a daughter, Yoon Gae Hwa that she will seal her fate when she coincidentally become Sung Min Woo housekeeper for one day - and burnt the poor guy shirt he was supposed to wear to a fanmeeting and totally forgot about it..

Life starts to change for Sung Min Woo, when his 6-year old daughter, Ye Eun arrived at his doorstep.. Afraid of his image will be tarnish, he denied the girl, even tried to left the girl on the streets but unsuccessful..

behind the scene of the episode Sung Min Woo planned to leave Ye Eun on the streets.. Choi Siwon actually looks attached to 'his' daughter

Although this drama may fall under the categorization of love story, for me its more of a family drama and how a person developed himself into a better better better person than he used to be

In this drama, we able to see how Sung Min Woo grow up to be a responsible, matured person because of Yoon Gae Hwa nagging and scolding him, to remind (or forced) him of responsibility.. How Sung Min Woo changes as he became to love Ye Eun and able to publicly admit her birthright, no longer selfishly pushing her aside for his career..
How Ye Eun became the bridge for Min Woo and Gae Hwa bickering and led them to something more..
How in the end Min Woo able to prove he had become not only a better person as a whole but also a better actor..

And I get to see how cute Choi Siwon is! :P

Overally, there's a lot of funny moments here.. Relatively speaking, some of kdramas do get draggy and boring at one part,but not for this one though.. In every episode you'll able to feel annoyance, sad and also laugh your heart out..

This drama greatly points out how a reporter can bring down one big name in the entertainment industry within a blink of an eye but also the one that make one rise again.. so all the artists out there, beware!

Interestingly, one thing that you obviously notice in O!ML is life is like a deja vu.. but it gave you a totally different meaning the 2nd time around.. you'll understand if you watch this drama..

look like a real one happy family (this is not one of the drama scene ye)

I'll end my longest post ever for the past months.. 'll catch up with you later.. Before I leave, I left you with my favorite pics of Choi Siwon, the sleepy Sung Min Woo..

Ahad, 18 Julai 2010

fairy tale

have you heard a story of a possible happy ending but eventually it ends the other way around..

i guess that's reality..

but an ending can also be just another beginning of a new story..

come, let me tell you a story..

once upon a time,

i have no idea!

its been ages since I updated this blog..

a lot of things happen in these few months..
personal-wise and career-wise.. but have no idea on how how to convey the story..
-- alhamdulillah, been to mecca and madina for a short umrah trip in may :) ,, kalau ada rezeki, mau pegi lagi!
-- found a new eye candy : a very cute guy named choi si won :P (tinggi!)
-- looking forward for all the uncertainties awaits me, even if it's a fairy tale without a definite ending.. life is no fun and excitement without surprises, be it for worse or for better (hopefully the latter) =)


p/s: teringat kata2 una suruh berenti berharap kat siwon..hahaha.. XD

Sabtu, 10 April 2010


bersyukur pada Allah yang Maha Pemurah Pemberi Rezeki..
Moga hambaMu ini tidak akan pernah lupa mensyukuri segala nikmat yang telah Kau berikan..

Ahad, 4 April 2010


MARA? - settle!.. yeay..walaupon sebenarnya da lambat anta surat lapor diri, nasib baik xyah byr..
thanx MARA for the free education! MARA semakin mara.. :)

LHDN? - settle! walaupon da bayar bulan2 dan beli laptop dan beli itu ini, masih kena bayar lagi..
iskkk2.. income tax taun ini RM999 (nice number though +.+")
bila dgr2 ada member yang xyah byr income tax, rasa jeles... ngaa~

Credit Card? - urmm.. aah..terlupa lak.. lol!

hutang budi? - urmm..byk kot.. walau diri ini sedar atau tidak siapa mereka, terima kasih pada sume yg penah berbudi.. deeds whether it's good or bad always come back around as in a cycle.. ;)

Sabtu, 6 Mac 2010


satu perkara yang amat terpahat di hati dan tidak akan dilepaskan peluang menonton lagi sekali teater ini kalau di beri kesempatan untuk melawat KOREA lagi..

excerp dari http://asiaenglish.visitkorea.or.kr:

Ever since first hit the stage in July 2003 it has been incredibly popular in Korea. It also has had remarkable international success. In 2005 and 2006 it took the Edinburgh Fringe Festival by storm, and then went on to tour around the world, ending up on London’s West End and New York’s off-Broadway, proving that this musical comedy has universal appeal.

This innovoative show incorporates many of Asia’s martial arts, including Korea's Taekwondo and Taekkyeon, as it tells the story of a family of martial arts specialists who have to defend their house from robbers.

The Jump Theater in Seoul opened in September 2006 and has become a popular cultural destination for tourists.

Ketika di dalam perjalanan ingin menonton teater ini, langsung tiada gambaran dan expectation untuk teater ini.. membaca summary show itu pon tidak dapat menggamit apa-apa respon dari diri ini.. tetapi, di saat dia bermula, mata terus terpaut dan tumpuan instantaneously terpikat..

Menarik sangat ke teater ni?


Jump Show ini merupakan non-verbal, martial art theatre yang mengisahkan tentang satu keluarga terdiri daripada datuk si taiko martial art, papa yang terer tapi ala2 sengal, mama yang terer takwando, pakcik yang selalu mabuk aka drunken master, dan anak perempuan yang cun melecun.. kemudian ada la pula seorang nerd berspek tebal ingin menyunting si anak perempuan.. tak ketinggalan duo perompak yg menambahkan lagi seri drama yg memecahkan isi perut ini...

warning: jangan sesekali menonton teater ini semasa perut senak selepas makan.. anda akan ketawa terbahak2 tidak ingat dunia..hehe..

koreagrafi dan stunt yang fantastic amat.. kagum.. macam tak percaya tengok live.. even kalo tgk kt tv akan impressed, apatah lagi bila anda tgk sendiri dgn mata kepala sendiri secara live..
lipatan2 badan mereka.. penerbangan yang dilakukan.. wow!

sound system dan lagu latar yang di mainkan turut menyumbang kepada ke-best-an persembahan..

pelakon2 yang toyerr dan selamba je memainkan peranan masing2..

sememangnya suatu yang tidak patut dilepaskan jika berkunjung ke Seoul..tiada kata dapat menggambarkan betapa sgt berbaloi2 duit yang anda spend untuk membeli tiket show ini..

akhir kata, yeay!~ ( berserta gaya dlm JUMP :P )

kalo ada kesempatan, sy mau tgk Break-Out pula..macam best juga!

di mana di seoul? :: IBK JUMP Seoul Theatre B2
berapa harganya? :: 40,000 KW - 50,000 KW (1000 KW +/- = RM3 , so kira la sendirik ek)
berapa lama show neh? :: 80 minit (siyesly rasa macam sangat sekejap dan x cukup masa)
bila show neh? :: setiap hari ada show.. sila google sendirik..
ada limit umur x? :: kalo anda lebih dari 3 taun, should be no hal..

Jumaat, 5 Mac 2010



been throwing up everything i ate these past 2/3 days..

arrived back late tuesday..starting to feel stuffy..

off day on wednesday.. nausea feeling started to be stronger.. my appetite limited since all came out in the same form they were eaten.. diarrhea at night..

thursday went to see the doctor.. prelim 1st opinion, "are you married?" concluded from my nauseous state..urgggghhh.. nonos! ..
the real, revised 1st opinion, diagnosed with food poisoning.. given MC 1 day.. spent the whole day hibernating with heavy headache..

friday.. in the morning, motion sickness affected by motion literally..fell like tumbling down everytime i move a lot especially after taking medications.. advise to go back early by my colleague but by the time i went back, it was post lunch time but still early from office hour.. kurang kepeningan da tapi balik gak..hee..

the culprit? --> probably the very-not-appetizing meal i ate on the Korean AIR flight on the way back since everything started from there.. eurgghhh...

x makan byk mana, tapi x kurus2 gak.. haihhh..

Ahad, 21 Februari 2010


previously my average weight is around 53 kg..
when i went for med check-up, 1 month before i started work, i was 51 kg.. probably worrying about depletion of my savings has some contribution here..
now, after more than 10 months working, i weighted 56.5 kg..

i used to wear jeans sized 28, now i dont even want to know or chose not to know what size i can fit in, definitely no longer 28 ..
and excess fats are showing here and there..
i used to have flat stomach without a need to exercise at all!
how i wish it lasted..
i dont even eat as much as used to eat back then when i'm still at utp!

i had planned to go gym..
i even bought a new pair of training shoes for that sole purpose..
but i had only wear it like, 2 times?.. :P
to exercise after office hours seems to be good as a plan,only to realize to actually do it is kinda near the low side of any probability..
its not everyday i am able to leave my office right on time at 5 or 6.. normally when i'm too sick to look at monitor screen, then will only i just leave everything, w/out even bothering to log out.. hee :P

anyone has any good tips to lose some/ much fats?
i dont mind the weight, as long as i lose the fats..

thinking of going to london weight management..
maybe in a thousand year..

Selasa, 16 Februari 2010

with all my heart~

鏡に映った 掛け違えたシャツのボタン
Kagamini utsutta kakechigaeta shatsuno botan
Reflected on the mirror, the buttons of my shirts are in the wrong buttonholes

Sonna sasaina kotode kimiga ireba yokattato omou
Even with these little things, I truly long for you

逢えない時間が 僕ら の愛を強くした
Aenai jikanga bokurano aiwo tsuyokushita
The time we cannot spend together has deepened our love

Kotobani tsumarunara sotto hooni kiss wo shiyou
If I’m at a loss in words, I’ll just kiss you lightly on your cheek

それぞれを待つ日々は 忙しく過ぎるけど
Sorezorewo matsu hibiha isogashiku sugirukedo
The days longing for each other quickly passes by

こんなにも こんなにもただ…
Konnanimo konnanimo tada…
So fast, so fast, only..

逢いたくて ずっと君を思うよ… 心から君を
Aitakute zutto kimiwo omouyo.. kokorokara kimiwo
I miss you, My thoughts are always with you… from the bottom of my heart

もう一度 my heart 伝えたくて
Mouichido my heart tsutaetakute
Once again, I want to give my heart to you

君が呼べば 僕は行くよ
Kimiga yobeba bokuha yukuyo
If you call me, I’ll go to you

Kimino sobade waraitaindayo
I want to smile by your side

ふとした 瞬間 傷ついてしまった心
Futoshita shunkan kizutsuite shimatta kokoro
By mere moments, your heart may be hurt

ひとりじゃ直せない痛み 僕が癒したいよ
Hitorija naosenai itami bokuga iyashitaiyo
I want to comfort your hurts which cannot be healed alone

今逢えない時なら  ただ君の面影を
Ima aenai tokinara tada kimino omokagewo
If I cannot be by your side, I’ll just

抱きしめて 抱きしめてほら…
Dakishimete dakishimete hora …
Hold you shadow in my heart, hold in my heart, and…

どん な日も ずっと君思うよ…心から君を
Donna himo zutto kimiwo omouyo … kokorokara kimiwo
All the days, my thoughts are always with you… from the bottom of my heart

もう二度と your heart 離さないから
Mou nidoto your heart hanasanaikara
I will never let go of your heart again

君が泣けば 僕は行くよ
Kimiga nakeba bokuha yukuyo
If you cry, I’ll go to you

Kimiwo itsumo mamoritaindayo
I want to always stand by your side

君が望 むなら 全てを尽くして
Kimiga nozomunara subetewo tsukushite
If it is your wish, I’ll try every means

君の描く未来 永遠の夢を叶えたい I wish
Kimino egaku eienno yumewo kanaetai I wish
I want to grant your future, your eternal dreams, I wish

逢いたくて ずっと君思うよ… 心から君を
Aitakute zutto kimi omouyo … kokoro kara kimiwo
I miss you, my thoughts are always with you, from the bottom of my heart

何度でも to heart 贈る smile for you
Nandodemo to heart okuru smile for you
For countless times, to heart, I’ll smile for you

悲しくても 嬉しくても
Kanashikutemo ureshikutemo
Even though sad, or happy

Kimino sobade waraitaindayo
I want to smile by your side

With all my heart
Find me, and I’ll be there for you

source: yuulinajae @ youtube
translation: smiley @ OneTVXQ.com
special thanks: diana© & Lexy & xU & junsulv @ OneTVXQ.com
credits: OneTVXQ.com { One World. One Red Ocean. One TVXQ! }

Ahad, 31 Januari 2010

rain pt 3.2

it's raining yet again..maybe not outside, but here, it's raining..i can feel the rain drops fell hard on my face..heard the spattering sound upon the floor..but why is it i can see none?

"stay, be with me, here"

i really loved to, wanted to, more than he knows but..

"i can't"

"then, i'll go to you"

my eyes open wide with excitement, happiness, hopes perhaps.. this should be a good sign, right?.. honestly?..seriously?

before both of us able to say anything more, an ankle-height wave hit both of us, wetting his trousers and shoes.. hurriedly he ran to the shore with me laughing tailing him behind, ending a conversation yet to begin.. i wished the wave never came..

i looooooooooooove beaches, but i hate the sea.. i had told him that for more than a million time .. but still, every time he'll chuckle at the comment.. okay, maybe i did not hate sea that much, but i'm scared of water..really, really really scared of water..

as much as i'm scared on how to imagine the absence of him..

never before i ever felt him so mad to me but with a little (maybe a tiny) hint of desperation..
it scared me but somehow thru that at least i can maybe, just maybe able to see how he felt towards me..

"now, tell me.. you told me you have something to TELL ME!"

the rain starts to pour violently.. making the sea lose its tameness.. waves getting angrier as if its conveying his anger..but still, vividly, i can see the sunset by the beach that we shared.. the spectacular view as if it was naturally photoshop-ed.. with me walking in my barefoot on the wooden planks of the viewing place as he throwed his gaze at the stunning sight..

once upon a long time ago, he once told me, all of these, whatever we had done, were investments.. it never was for me, i'm wondering whether if now he felt his investments were to no use..

once upon a long time ago, i was an innocence and hopeless romantic person, believing that there's someone outside there where you will belong with and perhaps have been waiting for that one person.. he never believed that and now i follow suit..

i had never doubted his feelings or his trust.. it just that maybe both of us are two different people with opposite perceptions.. the longer we were together, the more both of us realized how large our differences compared to what we have to share..

looking at his empty side of the bed, it made me feel bitter.. asking him to be here will be too selfish.. yet, i still asked, just to be here and nothing else.. and still..

if i can just sleep and never wakes up again.. maybe then, everything will be all right..please, sleep, take me, pull me into a deep slumber where i can't feel a thing..



i forgot to switch off my alarm clock..::sigh::

a note by my pillow catches my sight, a smile spread on my face..

"i still love you.."

perhaps the rain will stop and bright sunshine days are waiting ahead..

arghhh..lame x tulis bende ngarut2 cam ni.. grammar yg sgt teruk.. campur plak kebuntuan idea..adehh..

why 3.2? sbb ada lagi satu part 3 yg x abes2 tulis tp syg nk delete..haha~XD