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ever since tgk persembahan Dong Bang Shin Ki (DBSK)/Tohishinki/TVXQ time 10th Mnet Korea Music Festival (MKMF), terus terminat ngan derang..

:: yang paling cumey tu Chang Min.. da la tinggi~ XD ::

DBSK give a more matured vibe when compared to Big Bang.. compared to Big Bang, their ages range from 20 to 22 (Big Bang from 18 to 21).. plus they had debuted since 2003, so they sure matured over the years.. and i have to admit, persembahan derg memang best, especially time MKMF hari tu..

if skang ni Big Bang is on the top of korea's music industry, DBSK femes notably in many Asian countries especially in Japan, topping the Oricon chart, beating the local artist.. (cam lagu2 indon pemes kat msia la kot..) .. fanbase DBSK sgt kuat.. even kat Msia pon ade fanbase derang.. baru taw DBSK penah dtg malaysia..woot~

Ari tu dalam mase 2 hari, sempat lagi melayan Drama Banjun DBSK ngan muvi Vacation lakonan derang.. Banjun klakar gile..cumey~.. Banjun tu kononnya, ape yg derang wat or ape yg terjadi kat derang.. ade 4 ke 5 episod.. rasenye ni zaman2 derang muda remaja lagi..

:: excerpt from soompi on why Chang Min cried during MKMF::

At DNBN, there’s a news article (the boys must have given an interview after MKMF) that says that Changmin said he cried because of mainly relief. He was worried whether or not their fans would be supportive of them like before with their new album since they had been gone so long.

dari apa yang didgr2, DBSK tak tercalon ntuk MTV Asia Award tuk Koreanya, sbb derg bz ngan promotion kat oversea dan tak aktif kat korea.. kalo tak, maybe SuJu most probably takkan menang..woo~

my fevret song from DBSK : Rising Sun, Mirotic, O, Wrong Number, Hug, Look at the Glow, Crazy Love, The Way You Are (byk la plak :P)

kalo pasan, lagu Rising Sun ngan O, part bridge rentak die sangat beza ngan keseluruhan lagu.. mcm lagu len.. tp best~~ menarik.. sumthing new and original..

sharing the lyrics for Rising Sun below (credits to Soompi):

[Changmin]		Rise up! Rise up!
	|
[Micky]		Now I cry under my skin! I gaze at the sky and watch a lament of tears rain down To wash over pain-filled years.
[Yunho]		(No!) Forgiveness for me is absolutely undeserved! (No!) My rage escaped and flew out of control! (No!) I pray out loud for redemption! (No!) Here I go, come back!
	|
[Xiah]		Useless wings Days of ashes I wake up from flying, stabbed by fragments of shattered dreams. Another pitch black morning.
[Hero]		Everyone holds the truth, Yet it's hidden behind a deceptive facade. Will I forever be questioning what's left of my life?
	|
[All]		Break down the thick imprisoning walls. Press forward with courage and strength To regain my innocence. I'll burn fiercely like a raging fire And end like the radiant rays of sunset. I'm waiting for the rising sun...
	|
[Micky]		Now, burn my eyes. Sun comes up, blowing the fog. Never lie to your mind. Got to be true.
[Yunho]		The road I gotta take is 101. The truth is I can never reach full understanding. Still, in order to appear unashamed before my Sun, I just try me. And now...
	|
[Changmin]		Seriously, where the hell is the end to this chaos? (Somebody, talk. Each day, there's a different answer.) Can suffering ever lead to happiness? (Somebody, talk. Only time can tell)
	|
[Xiah]		It's like my life is a star Trapped in an vicious orbit
[Hero]		It's like I've chased after the answers to countless questions, Only to paint an incomplete picture.
[Changmin]		Do you know why?
	|
[Micky]		(Slow down...) Yeah. Come on. TVXQ. We got a remix!
[Changmin]		This is where my dreams begin, I've finally found the path to take.
[Xiah]		My chest is filled with ardor. I challenge the day it all ends. (The song's neverending.)
	|
[Yunho]		Yo! Now Some Some Some Some Some sun Right here Right now (Give it up for!) I'll make it under control (Give it up for!) Let me show you, prove to you I'm good Here we go, like this!
	|
[Micky]		Time is always flowing, I know well that it never returns. Mustn't leave myself regrets each day. Try to swallow the resentment caused by solitude.
[Changmin]		When I'm worn and weary, I'll remember The worth of happiness that is born of tears.
[Yunho]		Trials kiss my open hands, My innocence blooms in a garden of hardships. Nothing is set in stone, each day starts anew.
	|
[Yunho]		Bright! TVXQ! Say you! Say bright! Bruh-ruh-right! Rising sun...
[Changmin]		(Ah-ah!)
	|
[All]		Break down the thick imprisoning walls. Press forward with courage and strength To regain my innocence. I'll burn fiercely like a raging fire And end like the radiant rays of sunset. I'm waiting for the rising sun...
	|
[Changmin]		Seriously, where the hell is the end to this chaos? (Somebody, talk. Each day, there's a different answer.) Can suffering ever lead to happiness? (Somebody, talk. Only time can tell)
	|
[Yunho]		Rise up! Rise up!

there is nothing weird listening to Korean or Japanese or whatever languages other than ur native tongue.. cmon la, kite skang hidup dengan kemudahan internet.. dont limit ur interests.. experience new things..

"mcm ko phm je lagu tu"

tenet ade.. google sudey.. skang ni byk je fan community yang sub kan or translate kan lagu, interbiu, mv dan sebagainye.. dan jgn terkejut, sebilangan derg adalah orang malaysia.. i'm of cuz, not one of them la.. XD



lately, my playlist is mostly playing DBSK's songs.. and i called myself Big Bang's fan..lol

finding the missing piece in life..

demi matahari dan sinarnya di pagi hari..
demi bulan apabila ia mengelingi..
demi siang hari bila menampakkan dirinya..
demi malam apabila ia menutupi..

demi langit berserta seluruh binaannya..
demi bumi serta yang ada di hamparannya..
demi jiwa dan seluruh penyempurnaanya..

ALLAH mengilhamkan sukma kefasikan dan sukma ketakwaan..
beruntunglah bagi yang menyucikannya..
rugilah bagi yang mengotorinya..

at first, when i heard the words, i was mesmerized.. such beautiful word as if they from the Quran..when Pak Firdaus repeat those in the English version, the stronger the feeling ,and i already had a hunch from which verse they are..

yeah.. they're from As-Syams (1 to 9)..

it has been ages since i've updated this blog.. lepas raya sangat la busy.. with the fyp, the pdp, the assignments, the career placement week, etc2.. even till now, i have fyp, pdp, (mechanical design xstart lg neh ><"), reactor assignments and lab reports, om projects and test, caklempong assignment and quiz pending.. wow~ ><"

this is not what i wish to discuss here..today i would to like share some of the experience i yesterday and the day before..

on the last weekend, i had joined the basic seminar/ 1st stage of ESQ.. ESQ stands for emotional spiritual quotient..

the event started at 8 am and the 1st thing presented was the ESQ tagline of 'Demi Matahari' taken from As-syams verse 1-9.. it was not actually a presentation but the 'Demi Matahari' was dideklamasi (how to say that in english? ;p) with emphasization of the ESQ 165 module..

i was unable to folow the 1st module since i need to go out at 9 for my caklempong klas.. dbe' had mentioned they will be issueing exemption letter, but still, with the co-q day juz the next weekend, and i was still stumbling in playing the sauwa, i definitely to practised more (lagu die best..tapi rancak sgt..tak sempat2 nak keja2..aaa~)..

alhamdullilah, sampai2 je dpn MPH after co-q, baru nak start the outer journey module.. dalam module, diterangkan bagaimana penciptaan dunia..dari teori bumi yg datar dan bertindak sebagai pusat sistem solar.. hinggalah teori copernicus yang disokong galileo that the sun is the center of the solar system instead of the earth.. to the latest theory bigbang which have been empahasized quite a lot during the module (time die duk sebut 'big bang!', teringat grup big bang, tergelak sensorang..haha..yang tak tahan nye siap teringiang2 lagu lalala ngan lies.. adess.. subhanallah..kuat sungguh pengaruh setan..huuu)..

the big bang i know..hehe..

and then we were reminded, how all the knowledge of world creation had been told in the al-Quran for the past 1400 years ago.. how Rasullullah saw was accused for being a liar when he told the peoples and yet now, astronomers had shown proofs, had taken pictures from the Hubble telescope to support for what Rasullullah saw had said as in the Quran..

the second module (at least for me), was called the inner journey.. the trainer touches of the story on the lailatul qadr, the experience to travel merentasi langit..imagining if it happens to you.. to see how far your soul travels, leaving your body, where as time goes your by, your house is nowhere in sight, your town, your country, even the earth is nowhere in sight.. pass thru the Milky Way.. later, even Milky Way was just a small dot.. Then in a matter of second, you've were thrown back to the earth..to see the inner parts of yourself.. your skins, your cells, even your dna are actually are praising ALLAH swt and praying (bertasbih dan memuja ALLAH) for every seconds of their lifespan..

kalo nak cter ape yang berlaku time esq tu, berjela2 dan tak larat la nak tulis..huu..

from my pov, the esq programme meant to tell and remind our self, for everything and anything in life, they refer back to the Almighty..everything in this world are at His disposal..

IQ comprises of the physicals, what we think..

EQ comprises of the emotions, what do feel..

SQ comprises of understanding our soul, who we are?

there were a lot of sessions that involves tears.. even guys menanges teresak2.. there i really i want to cry my heart out.. tapi mungkin hati ini masih belum cukup lembut.. honestly i was really touched to the extent that my heart ache most of the time, but i manage only to let a few tears fall.. plus these few years, the people that manage to make me cry were my parents and those i held very dear.. even that, the tears lasted less than a minute.. it may have been self-pride.. it may be because it is one way to tell myself i need to be strong.. i think another reason was, da pernah dgr situasi2 yang die gambarkan tu.. huhu.. da lali kot.. hehe.. adess..

the one sessions that i will always remember was the one where as if we were questioned by the mungkar nangkir when we die.. with the sound effects and the loud voices, the recurring questions of 'WHAT DO YOU ACTUALLY WANT?' and 'WHO ARE YOU?'..dengan kilat2 die lagi.. if u wanted money, where are the money now.. if u wanted power, can that power helped u now?.. if u wanted ur loved one.. can their love save you now?..subhanallah..

'shouldnt ALLAH is the one you love the most in life? shouldnt ALLAH be the reason for your life?'

i wont lie to say the one that the one i love the most, my top priority, everything i'd done and do is because of ALLAH.. i wont deny that instead of ALLAH, i luv my family the most.. but as what had been told repeatedly in the program, 'love' came from ALLAH.. if ALLAH had not permitted, there will be no love in my family.. thus the love for ALLAH should exceed much2 more than those of His subjects.. Ya ALLAH, bukakan lah hatiku, hati keluarga ku, hati saudara-maraku, hati teman-temanku, hati orang2 yang aku sayangi, berikanlah kami hidayah agar mencintai Mu lebih dari segalanya di dunia, sedarkan lah kami, Kau lah segalanya, Kau lah punca hidup kami, Kau lah tujuan hidup kami..amiinn..

Sanosuke, from this moment i dont think i'm able to love you anymore.. you was once, an important anime character in my life..huhu..but still, u will alway s be special reminder of what my teenage life is like.. after all, i've liked you the most since i was in form two till the 1st year of my uni's life~ i even liked him more than my first real crush :P .. the same apply to Hiruma, Lockon (mengapakah sume watak anime? ngaa~)..hyde pon.. but still, kalo ade sesape nak bagi Sanosuke and Hiruma nye key chain ke, plushie ke, figurine ke, i'm more than willing to accept.. XD

talking about Sanosuke, hari tu, terserempak dgn the used-to-be-real-life-sanosuke.. i couldnt even recognized him.. die yang tegur dulu.. time tu xcam lagi.. dgn my 'who-are-you?' face, (usually used dgn tidak sengajanya dgn org yg xdpt di cam.. reflex ar XD) tertanya2 sape kah die ni.. bile nampak nama die baru teringat sape.. huu.. and i thought at least i could recognize his voice.. huuhu.. teringat time 1st jumpe die ngan yani dulu.. haha.. something i'll nvr forget.. lawak sungguh.. dulu suke nak mengkenenkan ngan my rumet sampai kena marah..haha.. i nvr expect to see him again but still happy dpt jumpa dia.. wishing him all the best in life~ ;) ..

one thing yang plg obvious dlm esq adalah byk involve physical contact such as salam semut and hugging.. kalo dulu, it is something i terribly dislike tapi skang da considerable.. tapi skang kala2 tensen, serabut, lonely, when u need emotional support, memang rasa nak hug someone.. as exhibit in esq programme.. tapi dengan yang muhrim je la.. bkn muhrim xley.. dose2.. hehe..

truthfully, i admit there was always a tugging feeling of incomplete or a missing part in my life.. ii felt as if i needed something that i longed for a very long time..rase rindu tapi xtau rindu ape..it was during the ESQ i am able to understand what i missed in my life, what fell out of place all these years.. to find them and secure them would be another story.. hopefully i will able to tell them in the future.. hopefully i am able to fill my soul with what really should be there.. hopefully, i will not be drifted yet another time..;)

Menjalani hitam putih itu membuatku mengerti
Arti hadir-Mu dalam setiap langkah-langkahku berarti

Melewati setiap detik waktuku bersama takdirmu
Membuatku mengerti hanyalah pada-Mu ku kembali

Ku bersujud kepada-Mu memohon ampunan-Mu
Adakah jalan untukku tuk kembali pada-Mu

Akulah para pencari-Mu ya Allah
Akulah yang merindukan-Mu ya rabbi
Tunjukkan ku jalan yang lurus
Tempat kutambatkan langkahku

Akulah para pencari-Mu
Akulah yang merindukan-Mu ya rabbi
Hanya di jalan-Mu ya Allah
Tempatku pasrahkan hidupku

Ku bersujud kepada-Mu memohon ampunan-Mu
Adakah jalan untukku tuk kembali pada-Mu

Akulah para pencari-Mu ya Allah
Akulah yang merindukan-Mu ya rabbi
Tunjukkan ku jalan yang lurus
Tempat kutambatkan langkahku

Akulah para pencari-Mu
Akulah yang merindukan-Mu ya rabbi
Hanya di jalan-Mu ya Allah
Tempatku pasrahkan hidupku

- Ungu : Para Pencari Mu-

death

"..dari tanah kamu di jadikan, maka kepada tanah kamu dikembalikan untuk dimamah ulat dan tanah.."

setiap apa yang bernyawa di atas muka bumi ini pasti akan merasa sakaratul maut dan mati.. cuma when, why and how is still an unknown mystery..

kalau dulu aku tertanya apa agak rasanya selepas akad nikah, how that person life's will change after he/she is legally declared married.. lepas2 sume majlis tu nak pegi mane.. nak wat ape.. cane nak start mulakan 1st step of married life..

skang ni terfikir, if i was told i had a terminal disease and wont live long, how will i react.. sedey ke.. marah ke.. pasrah ke.. terkejut ke.. how will it affect the remaining of my life?..

if someone that i held dearly and cherish the most died, how will my life change?.. what kind of life it would turn out to be?.. how will i cope, living in the memories of that said person..

if i died, will someone out there sincerely miss me.. how will my parents cope.. if i died, where will my soul go?..akan terbukakah pintu2 langit menyambut roh dengan sukaria.. atau akan dicampak dan dihempaskan ke perut bumi jika semua pintu langit di tutup (nauzubillah) .. are my good deeds able to cover my sins (something that i seriously doubt).. akan dilapangkan kah liang lahad.. atau akan disempitkan kah hingga berlaga tulang2 rusuk (nauzubillah)..

-sigh- tau takut, tapi bilakah nak insaf ni?.. <-- di tujukan pada diri sendiri.. ><"


p/s: tolong sedekahkan al-fatihah pada arwah atuk yang menyambut panggilan Ilahi pada khamis malam jumaat yang lepas.. moga rohnye di cucuri rahmat dari Dia yang Maha Pengasih dan Maha Penyayang..