of venting

had been ages since i properly updated this blog..
had quite a few blog materials however those remain in my draft-box and remain being unposts..

hurrmmm...

work is d*mn stressful.. my personality definitely is not one that fit for my work environment.. there u need to be loud, firm, persuasive, which i am not at all..feel like giving-up sumtimes but when i think about $$, man, i need that!.. i am being too pampered with the luxuryness ever since working here, and we ARE being underpaid if to compare with the industry standard..

the best and a definite good thing working there are the opportunities for you to learn about almost anything and everything.. a lot of interesting things~.. and the people there are nice and very professional.. but the workload!..ommona!.. with (not-so) big money come a whole huge lot of workload/responsibilities, and there are no stopping of new trains from coming!

i guess that's why i resort myself to be in this kpop/drama fanatism.. am noticing myself that i tend to be easily happy and laugh and giddy about anything positive and shining (like the bright morning sky).. am i start to lose my mind? >.<

TAKE TWO

luv SECRET GARDEN!.. whenever HyunBin smile, i can't help but to smile as well.. when he cried, i found my tears are falling too.. so glad JangHyuk dropped this project (no offense JH's fan - I am one myself) as I can not imagined some one else carry out Kim Joo Won as good as HyunBin..

a must watch drama for whoever claimed themselves as an avid kdo followers!


Maybe I should write a review on this after the finale.. maybe..

Till then..

Kim~~suhanmoo keobugiwa durumi samcheongabja Dong Bang Sak Chichigapo Sarisarisaenta Woriwori Saepeurika Moodoosella gureumi heorikaein dambyeorak seosaengwonae goyangyi badookineun Doldolri..

of comeback

TVXQ! is back!.. (the first ! was part of the group name)..
the songs really set the mood similar established during MIROTIC (which i luv! a lot!, although it could have been better if it were the 5 of them - really need to stop this 'what if')

they'll be making comeback performance next week.. cant wait to see it after the supercool and appetizing teasing teaser(s)..

TVXQ! (HoMin) - Keep Your Head Down

Keep your head down U-Know time (Max)
You know what time it is?
This is return of the king

(Everything has ended) I didn’t even start yet
(We broke up) I haven’t even heard the reason yet
Everyone around me keeps asking me why I’m like this
Why are you like that, why are you like that? I’m already the bad guy

(If it’s a sin) If loving you was a sin
(If that was a shin) If being genuine is a sin
(I’ll keep it low, I’ll keep it low) I’ll hold it in and stand my ground

(Keep your head down)
You look pretty, but inside you’re so different, that’s what I’m afraid of
(Keep your head down)
I said I loved you but I’ll let you go

(Why?) Did you leave me so easily
(Why?) Did I look easy to you?
(Why?) My heart is ripping to shreds
(Why?) If every moment was a dream
(Why?) If only I had the time to set it right
(Why?) I prayed for your happiness

I was always satisfied with having you
I was happy to dream the same dream as you no matter what they said
I had to let you go, but I’m just walking my path anyway
Now I’m just chillin’, Feel like I’m healing

It’s too late, you said you can’t come back
You’ve always believed that I’d crumble without you
That’s a misunderstanding, why would I do that? why, why, I told you I wouldn’t

(Hey) I was really, really sad, because you were so immature
and I was afraid you’d meet someone bad (Why? baby)

(Keep your head down)
You’re really pretty, but that’s all there is to you, there’s nothing important inside of you
(Keep your head down)
A nail is driven into the heart that is holding in the pain of love

Ha~ Don’t play with people like that
In front of me, all you do is speak of lies
You’re such a two-faced person
(Why why why) Since when did our crystal-like feelings become so opaque?
Our love has ended, I’ve let you go, and now my heart is empty
But my future is gesturing towards me to get up and smile
I’m letting you go, live happily (why why why)
One day far from now, far from now, I want to just smile comfortable

(Why?) Why
(Why?) You let go of our love so easily
(Why?) Did you ever think that someone would get worried?
(Why?) I don’t think you know yet
(Why?) Exactly just what you let go of
(Why?) Just remain there and watch me grow

(Keep your head down)
Erased, disappeared, you’ve burned to death in my heart
(Keep your head down)
Erased, disappeared, you’ve died in my heart and you no longer exist

(source: allkpop)

TAKE TWO

i had gained 2-3 kg after less than a week offshore.. even my mom able to point where the additional fats went to.. can i really survive till EO february?

of an untold story unfold

it was only the day before my 24th birthday that i was told quite an interesting story that happens back 24 years ago:

near midnight of Dec 19, 1986 my uncle was simply kalut.. it was raining heavily and had started flooding as per the scheduled monsoon season.. at my grandmother house, my mom was already in labor pain despite my birth date outlook to be tentatively Jan 31, 1987.. the village clinic's nurse was away on vacation.. the nearest bidan simply declined to come as she was not booked.. the only choice left is another bidan who lived quite far and need to cross a bridge.. once my uncle reached the bridge, the bridge was flooded with overflowing water thus unable to distinguished between the river and the bridge.. this one river was known to have its inhabitants, thus when my uncle actually stepped into one of their heads, he immediately snatch a tree branch and ketuk ketuk ketuk ketuk their head and hurriedly, running across the river to the bidan house.. i was born just right when the clock strike twelve with my uncle the bidan safely made it despite the dangerous encounter..

the not so dangerous crocs

TAKE TWO

aaahh.. I am 24 now.. spent the day travelling back from KB to home.. but had had a nice dinner at Koryowon! once reached KL .. heee~.. i just love the tender and juicy beef bbq-ed korean style wrapped in fresh crispy lettuce..nyumm!

Not to forget, happy engagement to Kak Tie!

kenapa tak rasa cam da tua setaun pon? :P

of randomness

of colors in zaman muda remaja

you are so dazzling, my heart is thumping..
you are the only one for me and always be number 1, i love you..

come a little bit closer to me, i want to tightly hold your hands..
this song is only for you, i love you forever..

i need your love, love, love..

i promise you to only look into your eyes..
stand by your side, protecting and loving you with all my heart..

baby, i need your love, love, love..

just your one love is enough for me..
even if i will lose everything, never will i let you go..

you are my everything my love..

i only see you, i keep thinking about you..
that never fails to make me smile..

you are my everything my heart..

you have captured me..
you are more captivating than angel, i will only love you..

i was secretly laughing at myself..
i can not believe how deep i have fallen for you..
you got into my mind with your charm my boo..
now i am like a fool that has fallen in love..
my everything, now it's you..
i am falling in love with you, look at me and i promise you..
even if the world ends, i'll love you like a timeless clock that never ends..

i need your love, love, love..

i promise you to only look into your eyes..
stand by your side, protecting and loving you with all my heart..

baby, i need your love, love, love..

just your one love is enough for me..
even if i will lose everything, never i will let you go..

you are my everything my love..

i only see you, i keep thinking about you..
that never fails to make me smile..

you are my everything my heart..

you have captured me..
you are more captivating than angel, i will only love you..

:: Angel - Super Junior's Ryeowook, Kyuhyun, Donghae, Sungmin & Eunhyuk::


TAKE TWO

oh, youth spirit and puppy love(s)!~
has mine passed already?
my time may yet to be due :P

wondering whose heart will this arrow strike?